When I finally convinced myself that the party was over and now my drinking was a necessity, I knew there was only One Way to quit. I decided that instead of drinking a quart of Whiskey a night, I would only drink half one night and the other half the next night. The third night I think I drank three 24oz. malt liquer beers. The forth night two, the fifth night one and the sixth night none. I told God that either He was going to deliver me or I was going to go into the Bends, DT's... or die. I asked God to forgive me for all the sins that I had committed and that I would do things His way. I believe that Jesus died for my sins and was raised from the dead and I confess Him as Lord of my life. In the name of Jesus Christ.
It was scarry on the last night. I heard the guy upstairs and another person giggling and she was not supposed to be their. I lived in a single man's Inn. (The difference between a motel and an Inn is, at the Inn, the toilet and showers are down the hall.) I didn't want to listen to them playing around so I turned on the television and the girl realized that I could hear them. She got upset and he got furious but, that's a whole other story. I could write a book about what happened that night but, I don't think any one would read it. I don't know if anyone is going to read this. Leave a comment requarding my continuing to blog or has it already been done.
Long story short, God had a plan for me and I was delivered January 21, 2004. No withdrawls or DT's. Praise the LORD!
As I would try to sleep at night, memories of my past would flood my mind and I knew that if I reminisced and kept thinking about that memory, it would be the same as committing the act again bringing Jesus to an open shame, nailing Him to the cross again.
So, I said, I command that memory to dissolve and dissapear in the name of Jesus Christ. Father, forgive me for watching those movies or taking advantage of that person or hating the person who took advantage of me. Depending on the specific thought. And then another thought would enter my mind and I would repeat myself. Father, I pray for the salvation of those in my thoughts, deliver them from the addictions of this world and I command that memory to be cast out, never to return in the name of Jesus Christ. Thank you Jesus for the blood that washes us white as snow. Thank you Father God for sending us Your son. Bless Your Holy Name, the name you gave Your Son Jesus. Amen
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Arnold! Thank you for your courage. It is difficult to find the willingness to quit ANY addiction. And being WILLING to turn away and cast out secret pleasures is a critical turning point in our lives, especially at those times when we have NOT LEARNED to trust in the LORD's SOVEREIGNTY in our lives! Thank you also, for being willing to share your process. Other lives will be blessed, no doubt! I'm overjoyed to see the changes in your life.
ReplyDeleteWow. I apologize for not seeing this comment. I was new to blogging and did not see it. I recently went back to blogger to read someone else's blog and was surprised to see my stuff still there. Thank you for the encouraging words, especially at this time in my life when things seem to be going no where. I keep trying to teach and share what I have learned from being chosen by God. Jesus said, You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should remain, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name, he may give it to you. If you are interested. I have built a couple of websites that hold what I have learned. It is not common. If fact, it is new revelations from what is already written. Thanks again for your comment. May our God and Father bless you in the name of the Lord Jesus, Amen. I am an Elohimist. Elohimists.com
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